I just wish...

I have a friend who can read people like books. Literally can look at a person and know exactly what they are feeling. When they are sad, he knows. When they are happy, he knows. When they are frustrated, he knows. I have always admired him and his ability to empathize with others. I don't know if it is a gift or what.

Me on the other hand, have no such capability whatsoever.

If someone is sad, I will probably think that they are constipated. If someone is happy and laughing, I think they are crying. I cannot read people or their emotions. This has been problematic since I have made social contact with others. Especially college.

Lately I have had some, what you call, "inner struggles", because I can't read a certain someone. They talk to me a lot, then they don't for a week. They smile sometimes and other times they just stare. They ask me to do things and I do them, then they don't acknowledge me. I feel like I am losing my mind. If only I had some special power.

Because of my disability to read people, I have come to the conclusion that when the time comes that I will marry, it will be extremely difficult. I won't catch the hint, when he goes down on one knee I am going to be that girl who is like, "so what are you doing?". I have no hope.

Hopefully when the time approaches i'll let the holy spirit guide. I just wish...